the breath robbing lightning, was making diamonds of rain

the cainnum has twitted

2009-02-22T04:25:00.000-08:00

im twittering now! whos twittering with me?

http://twitter.com/Cainnum

this and that

2009-02-19T17:16:00.000-08:00

I hope Josh was wrong about Guitar Hero ruining my ability to play the actual guitar, because as it stands now, I suck at that too. I cant get past medium on Guitar Hero or Rock Band. Well I can play some songs on hard on Rock band, but not many.
Mom is coming to visit on her birthday Monday. She really wanted to take a crack at RB on drums. Shes gonna kidnap me and take me back to A town for the week, so to anybody reading this I wont be available to instance next Friday. (not tomorrow, but next week)
Been watching arrested development, its funny as hell.
Wow, I really dont have much else to say. I miss Stephanie.
laters

postcards from azeroth

2009-02-07T19:58:00.000-08:00

I won't bother explaining my addiction, everyone already knows about it. Here are some pics of my journeys.

The queen of BRD and her loyal subjects

I made it to the portal, ma!

Sleeping it off in Dire Maul

Dranei grave dancing party!

2009-02-07T03:53:00.000-08:00

Brooks was here

music

2009-01-06T11:35:00.000-08:00

What people may or may not know about me is that for me music is life. It is everything. Its what inspires and fascinates, challenges, and is really about the only thing that I won't eventually become bored with. Sometimes music is the only thing that really keeps me going. Sort of like the energizer bunny or those little dancing flowers.
So....do what you love right?
Performing can take a lot of starting scratch, which I am currently not blessed with. This of course is my own fault. Hopefully one day I can resolve this.
In the interim?
I've thought about broadcasting, but that wouldn't work either, because I know I would never get to play what I wanted, just the filth certain people call 'music'.
Call me a music snob. I don't care anymore. There is stuff out there that I simply refuse to respect people for listening to.
So....i'm pretty much left with writing. Putting my music snobbery to work and talking up the stuff I love, and kicking in the balls the music I cannot stand. Why not?
Because there are more people that do that now than I can even imagine. My voice would not be unique. I have a framed demotivator staring at me right now telling me 'never before have so many people with so little to say said so much to so few'.

Well....screw you despair.com, ima do it anyways!

Midlake
Probably the best band I've heard out of Denton in quite awhile. If you hit up the website, go to their media section and listen to 'young bride', its my favorite song of theirs so far. Their latest venture 'The Trials of Van Occupanther' has turned quite a few heads and ears, and probably gave our fair city more attention, at least since Centro-Matic hit the scene, oh so many years ago. If you dig the haunted throw back indie sound with strings, definately give them a try.

Laters

The hipster flip

2008-12-02T10:12:00.001-08:00

i took a dive
in the lights
dirty clothes
dirtier hands
i run screaming for the hills
and they all do
how did you come to this place
did you find us sticking bills
trying desperately to be seen
under the covers
in the backseat
i find shame in the common
and they all do
this is the tshirt slogan club
est. 1998
and no
you cannot join
stare at your shoes some more
roll your eyes
and roll your own
ok lets talk
i leave pride for closer comforts
and they're already there
so lets achieve to fail
and lets all do
the hipster flip
mumble for joy
for finding
your true brothers and sisters
who for some reason
look just like you

after years of waiting

2008-11-24T02:35:00.000-08:00

yes i am blogging, dont act so surprised. god has it been over a year? i really should have at least tried to keep up. oh well
so im turning thirty
in one week
this isnt going to be a pity bloggy or anything. ill spare you my thoughts on the whole matter. just stating fact. its going to happen whether i like it or not. which i dont. at all.
my only consolation is that my friends arent far behind hehe. does that make me evil?
i am going to get to meet chris onstad in austin on the sixth, and get to see the fam so thats always nice.
ppl say thirty is the new twenty? i used to call bullshit, but now thats it's happening to me guess what?
im turning twenty! yay!

2008-04-25T04:05:00.000-07:00

STF

2008-03-12T11:17:00.000-07:00

I havent blogged in a long time. months. i didnt check my last post to see exactly how long, but maybe somebody can help me out with that.
so the question is at hand, what could have brought me out of my blog-free zone? there are a ton of things i could have blogged about over the past few months. not having a job, finding a job, worrying about ppl, my own self loathing, which has been growing exponentially. i didnt even blog about seeing Aesop Rock for god's sake. Aesop Rock!! damn, im really lazy.
The answer to the question of course is a movie. A good movie. A damn good movie. A freakin' great movie. Not the best ive ever seen, but something that could definately creep its way into my top twenty, given another viewing.
The film in question is Stranger Than Fiction. I'm ashamed that I just now got around to watching this movie. I've been wanting to see it for quite some time now, but for some reason, just never got to it. I would usually see it at the video store and think 'i want to watch that, but i know Josh and Dave have already seen it. oh well.' But thanks to netflix, I watched it last night.
If you havent actually seen the movie, here's the lowdown. An extraordinarily average guy begins hearing a voice narrating his every action, thought, and mannerism. Pretty much his life. Will Ferrell's original reactions to the voice were great, and he was almost perfect for the character. He thinks at first that it may his toothbrush talking to him lol. He tries to ignore it for a bit until the voice lets slip that his death is imminent, and thats when he starts to freak. From there he seeks help, and tries to discover what to do, and who exactly is narrating his life. thats the gist of the movie for the most part.
Pretty much from the start I was fascinated. I loved the on screen GUI type visuals that accompanied the narration. I love Emma Thompson's voice, she was the perfect fit for the role. I just plain love Emma Thompson. The entire cast was great. The writing was brilliant. The movie was exceedingly clever, thoughtful, and even heart-warming. I really cant say enough about it.
I originally had a problem with the ending, but i thought about, and it actually fit pretty well with the rest of the movie.
Oh and if all that werent enough, the soundtrack was by none other than austin's very own Spoon. Spoon!! mmmm...Brit Daniels....
So there you have it. Best movie ive seen in a long time. Watch if you havent. and if you have, then watch again dammit.
I also saw 30 days of night, and that was pretty cool too.
Also coming soon, my revised top ten film list, and maybe even top 20. laters

tensions are rising

2007-12-04T18:32:00.000-08:00

new post on FH

crapsgiving

2007-11-21T21:51:00.000-08:00

i wish i was going home for thanksgiving but im not. im staying here. maybe b/c of my brother, lack of funds etc. id much rather be working even than staying here tomorrow. im sad but what else is new. maybe ill get to see raine though

painted

2007-11-19T01:27:00.001-08:00

2007-11-17T20:52:00.000-08:00

guilt

2007-11-14T18:36:00.000-08:00

my bday is coming soon, and unsurprisingly im regretting it. not because im getting older *ok thats one of the reasons*, but mainly because i dont deserve anything and certainly dont deserve any sort of celebration, because of my current status as a person. hence anything that i might get from anyone i feel i wont deserve and feel guilty for receiving. i regret bringing it up at all to certain ppl, and wonder if theres a way to stop myspace from annoucing to everyone that its my birthday. maybe ill change it to something else.
so in short memory flashie thing yourself so youll forget. thank you

my god...its full of pink..

2007-10-25T13:54:00.000-07:00

im gonna start photoblogging....like crazy....thanks to stumbleupon

...i thought i missed you...

2007-10-25T12:54:00.001-07:00

...and i do.. i miss you cheese. i know you're moving right now. god knows where to. thought you were moving to PA, but who knows. hope you're doing ok. i dont want to make demands, like get the hell online. i may not be able to talk to you for a while, im going to austin for a week, im pretty sure i told you this. hope moving doesnt take its toll on you, and heres to hoping you dont have to do it again for awhile. love you.

2007-10-23T03:46:00.000-07:00

zoom in

2007-10-22T00:41:00.000-07:00

lay your eyes on the ZoomQuilt, if you dare.

ZoomQuilt

..and listen to some tripped out music while you're doin it.

im back baby

2007-10-08T16:23:00.000-07:00

so apparantly some ppl *ok two* still check my blog regularly to see if ive updated, which i havent done in what feels like a year. so im updating. i really like this blog, its nifty, and im pretty certain it would go away if neglected it for long enough.

josh got me started on the wheel of time. cause he's evil. im too deep into it now and i cant stop. i caught myself thinking just how big the series really is. eleven books, all about 700+ pages. thats.....um....alot. it boggles my mind. and theres a twelfth book that may never come out due to the untimely demise of Mr. Robert Jordan. Le sigh. its like looking up a mountain that i cant see the peak of.

still looking for a job. its frustrating. no one wants to call me back. my resume is good. all the jobs ive held have been at least a year or more. i really hope petco calls, that would be awesome. i loves aminals.

im going to austin for halloween. im excited. halloween in a town is a blast. most freaks per capita than any other city in texas.

ive been dead in the poetry department for a while. dont know why. its like saidin, and im having trouble touching it. dammit!! forget you ever read that sentence.

oh also theres this:

Belfast, KY

2007-02-17T17:35:00.001-08:00

Harry seemed nonplussed
Paula was in the the garden
with the kids
it stopped raining on thursday
and the wind hit the switch
on the seasons
wrapped the fence
around the chimney
and sent the family
into the clouds
like birds
who've forgetten to fly
but the path soon lights
ending on a dot
on a map
reading Belfast, KY pop 1091
raising silent children
in the shade
and now jimmy is afraid of storms
and they all forgot to name the new baby girl
wasting time on a dream
of another home
from a long long time ago

quickly becoming one of my favourite bands is....

2007-02-05T11:58:00.000-08:00

Sigur Ros. I hope i can see them one day soon. Listen to their new single 'Saeglopur' on my myspace profile.

stuck in my head

2007-02-02T13:22:00.000-08:00

echoes myron from the guided by voices album 'bee thousand'

Tower to the skies
An academy of lies
And what goes up
Surely must come down
And we felt the mighty blow-up
With the walls coming down
Or something like that
Most of us are quite pleased
With the same old song
And all of a sudden Im relatively sane
With everything to lose and nothing to gain
Or something like that
Man of wisdom and man of compromise
Man of weak flesh in an armored disguise
All fall down
If its right you can tell echos myron like a siren
With endurance like the liberty bell
And he tells you of the dreamers
But hes cracked up like the road
And hed like to lift us up, but were a very heavy load
And were finally here and shit yeah its cool
And shouldnt it be - or something like that

stupid

2007-02-02T08:25:00.000-08:00

i smoked a cigarette this morning. im worried i could start again. it was really dumb. someone needs to slap some sense into me. maybe ill do it myself...

ow.

back in the day

2007-01-31T10:35:00.000-08:00

going some of my old posts i realized i dont blog like i used to. granted i dont really blog at all any more, but when i did, i would talk about myself and shit that was happening and how was i feeling and all that. nowadays i just post pics or one or two words posts. so what happened?
im too busy. or ive given up on caring. or...insert random excuse.
its like my writing, i used to write, because i thought ppl would want to read, when i should have been writing for myself, which thanks to wendy, im doing my best to do now.
so i guess i should blog like that too. pretend im just talking to myself, working stuff out and what not.
so...
damn im hungry...hope i have a good night....hope i see wendy soon....ummm..thats all hehe.

Disclaimer

2007-01-19T07:12:00.000-08:00

for those of you who dont like poetry and the like...well...screw you. thanks to wendy and a poem by charles bukowski, ive started writing like mad and i dont see it ending....well...ever. im gonna post everywhere, including here. so there.

magnified

2007-01-19T07:05:00.000-08:00

from every position imaginable
i shout these lines
to the sky
i say i am important
but i dont feel it
to the ground
am i who ive always been?
i torture myself
for no reason
i see the pain
reflect from me
to others
and it is magnified
my heart tears
but only in small places
i will heal
and i will love....
me
one day soon
this will not go unread
these words will not fail
just as i will not fail me

has it been a year already?

2007-01-18T12:07:00.000-08:00

feeling nostalgic, from exploding dog, this used to be the background for my old blog on diaryland.

writing

2007-01-17T22:56:00.001-08:00

holy jeez i cant stop writing

new poem

2007-01-17T21:16:00.000-08:00

no real blog, but a new poem on floodedhearts. laterz

top five from the 'wood

2007-01-04T12:08:00.000-08:00

i was going to do a top five videos of last year, but as far as i know you still cant embed video on blogger, let me know if im mistaken. so here it is, in link form, my top five achewood strips of all time, so far.

Who ate my 'shrooms?

Tequila

Drudge Report

The Motorcycle and the Mountain

Basketball Game

five things about me....

2006-12-29T12:59:00.000-08:00

...one of which is a fekkin lie, so guess which one. Veronica tagged me, so here goes it.

1. I once bought $150 concert tickets to coachella fest in california, but never got to go. it really pissed me off

2. my first job was bagging groceries at kroger in denton, two weeks in i stole a pack of cigarettes, which led to me smoking for ten years

3. Until the fifth grade i was in classes for gifted children, due to moving and family stuff i gave up on school and got dumb.

4. When i was ten i got lost at six flags for the entire day. i had an escort and they helped me look for my family, but we also went on a lot of rides and had a lot of fun.

5. I once got to touch and even kiss the stanley cup. yes i am that much of a hockey nut!

ok there you go, short but sweet. oh and btw i tag Raine and Stephanie

ratings

2006-12-21T14:20:00.000-08:00

holy crap i cant believe this. lore finally updated book of ratings. i cant believe it. i almost had a heart attack when i saw this. seriously he hasnt updated in over a year! i am so excited i think im gonna plotz. go, read, now!

book of ratings

postsecret

2006-12-18T12:26:00.000-08:00

apparantly there are ppl that feel the same way i do. its as if i sent this in and just dont remember it.

whats right with me

2006-12-12T09:27:00.000-08:00

kind
generous
thoughtful
caring
creative
sensitive
reasonably intelligent
funny
sometimes witty
loving
loyal
fun
talented
knowledgeable
observant
trusting
excellent taste in music
friendly
reliable
open minded

What is wrong with me

2006-12-08T11:32:00.000-08:00

insecure
unsure
hesitant
timid
afraid
morose
shy
sensitive
stubborn
emotional
trusting
naive
weepy
impatient
cautious
depressed/depressing
pessimistic
hopeless

engrish of the...whenever

2006-12-06T11:11:00.000-08:00

i think this is how chowder is made.

another day

2006-11-30T13:18:00.000-08:00

well tomorrows another birthday. 28. not a terribly significant age. two years till 30. ick.
throwing a party, but i doubt anyone will show up. ill probably get way trashed way early and pass out and then wake up and wonder where everyone went, and wonder who the ppl are making out on my couch. i guess this is what the kids consider fun these days.

fav postsecret

2006-11-27T09:48:00.000-08:00

couldnt think of much else, so heres my fav postsecret of the week

poor binkers probably never saw it coming.

fh

2006-11-20T15:29:00.000-08:00

meet M.A.M on fh

me vs the pacific ocean

2006-11-12T12:40:00.000-08:00

p.s. the ocean won

K*num-fornia

2006-11-08T09:05:00.000-08:00

C is for change of scenery

A is for airport security

L is for lake, mammoth

I is for indie music, which we'll be listening to a lot of *maybe*

F is for Firefly, which I plan on getting Veronica hooked on

O is for ocean, pacific

R is for relaxing

N is for non refundable ticket

I is for imbibing, alot

A is for au revoir

weekly hotness

2006-11-06T09:37:00.000-08:00

Thats right, after months its back. what can I say, I havent been inspired recently I guess. The subject of this issue of hotness should have been mentioned a long time ago. Ladies and Gentleman I present indie starlet and 'star'(porn) of Vincent Gallo's Brown Bunny, Chloe Sevigny.

You may be wondering 'wait a minute, she's blonde, and skinny, like completely the opposite of Cainnum's type', and to that I say, shut the hell up! j/k. I guess maybe its the tomboyishness or something that does me in. All I really know is that I think shes hot. So there.

NaNoWriMo Project

2006-10-31T07:10:00.000-08:00

From Engrish.com

worst name evar!

2006-10-26T11:53:00.000-07:00

this is too much! my fav is probably nuts and milk. what the hell kinda game is that. also the only one in this list ive played is yo noid! and it wasnt that bad. ok i was 12. so what.

Worst game names ever!

kitty had a bender

2006-10-25T13:50:00.000-07:00

Eight things i find amazing in picture form

2006-10-23T12:08:00.000-07:00

Well ive been tagged by the lovely Veronica, so it is my duty, nay my privlege to carry on the amazing photos blog...thingie. Here goes! btw, its all about me, cause im vein lol.

Its amazing how long ago i was born, and in such a little place like this. This is Carswell air force base. Its also amazing that my birthplace may or may not have been the holding place for alien life forms that may or may not have landed in Roswell, NM. Pretty cool, huh?

Pretty amazing how badly I still want to be here. Tokyo. Hell, id settle for Kyoto at this point. The anagram lovers Tokyo, lol.

Its amazing how vein i can be if i think about it. Im really vein about my tattoos, ive even got them posted on myspace. i am going to get a new one soon. more on that later.

Kinda amazing that i miss a cat that isnt even mine. farley is the best cat ever, but opie doesnt want to move him in because of amy and her son being allergic. crap.

its amazing how much i miss raine. wait no it isnt. not amazing at all. this one shouldnt even count. hope to cya soon hon.

its amazing how much ppl change. this is my friend jason that i use to hang out with all the time. he used to have real long hair and be a semi hippie type guy, IMO. now he's a hardcore, rocker with really short hair. found him thanks to myspace. also amazing how despite the fact that i bitch that myspace sucks, it still helps you stay in touch with ppl.

More on the ppl changing thing. I can remember when Jess was pretty much a kid. she certainly didnt look like this. defintely a blossoming thing. plus i dare you to try and look like this after having a kid. looking good babe!

Lastly, and least importantly hehe, its amazing how much i miss dying my hair. I think it was pretty damn cool looking like that. damn you fedex! ok im done.

ps opie and stephanie have now been tagged.

pick one

2006-10-20T14:50:00.000-07:00

excuses

myspace is back

2006-10-17T10:27:00.000-07:00

or i guess im back to myspace? dunno. anyhoo i can use myspace at work again. hooray. i even got a spiffy new layout to celebrate. apparantly everything that was blocked is unblocked again. i can watch videos, and even use webaim and gmail chat. work doesnt totally suck anymore. now i want everybody to msg me as much as possible. starting........now!

cali bound

2006-10-15T14:50:00.000-07:00

fh

2006-10-11T10:53:00.000-07:00

find the pattern on FH

Sufjan Stevens

2006-10-04T11:02:00.000-07:00

season 1 episode song list/episode two: free goat

all the trees of the field will clap their hands

engrish

2006-09-27T08:47:00.000-07:00

usually i like to laugh at something on engrish, but this one is kinda of poetic. i really like it.

BTW

2006-09-26T11:37:00.000-07:00

theres like stuff on fh. please listen to my audioblog if you get a chance. transcript of said audioblog coming soon for raine

jog

2006-09-25T09:35:00.000-07:00

i went jogging last night. twice around my apt. probably bout half a mile

audioblog numero uno

2006-09-23T19:11:00.002-07:00

eyes in my inbox

2006-09-22T11:19:00.000-07:00

google is reading my email and theres nothing i can do about it. at first i ignored it but i cant anymore. i used to sing the praises of gmail, but now im not so sure. ill look up at the little ticker above my inbox and itll be advertising something that i was just talking about with someone in my email. how curious. this used to be every once in awhile but now its all the time. i dont approve. i dont care if it is just a search algorithim, its still MY email goddammit. that shit is personal sometimes. also i think they're purposely sending me spam just to prove their spam filters work. just a theory.

so will i change from gmail?

*strange buzzing sound in my head*

hell no! gmail rocks

FH

2006-09-19T11:11:00.000-07:00

FH is disintegrating.

Goddess

2006-09-10T12:33:00.000-07:00

Meet Beth Ditto. She's fat and proud and has an amazing voice and she is absolutely fucking gorgeous. I love her. shes an activist for fat people. I am going to see her on the 22nd at emo's if it kills me. even i have to go alone, which i probably will.

Oh btw this is her band. the gossip, but who cares about them? just kidding, they're pretty cool too.

Canvas

2006-09-07T11:16:00.000-07:00

Behold! I am art.

my new obsession

2006-09-02T10:48:00.000-07:00

Stuntkid.

The three greatest words in the english language, ever

2006-08-21T12:41:00.000-07:00

I love you.

engrish

2006-08-17T13:13:00.000-07:00

this is just too good to pass up. i have to show this to everyone. apparantly there is a drug epidemic sweeping Japan that no one knew about. from www.engrish.com

funk

2006-08-15T08:58:00.000-07:00

sorry i havent been posting lately, or visiting other blogs. . havent been up to it. been in a bit of a funk lately. i really need counseling. im really sorry your visit sucked joshie. ill make it up to you somehow. hope everyone is doing ok.

hi

2006-08-10T15:01:00.000-07:00

hello. im doing ok. im not dead. its been bad the past few days, but im surviving. i talked to jerilynn on aim today. shes really awesome, and really sweet. due to money problems im not going to be able to go to aclfest which im really bummed out about. i told raine id take her and now i cant so i feel bad. more later maybe.

post

2006-08-08T13:29:00.000-07:00

learn to hurt on FH

postsecret

2006-08-07T15:01:00.000-07:00

Im stealing Jerilynn's idea, at least temporarily, of posting my fav postsecret of the week. When I saw this i broke down and cried. at work. I feel this way about somebody close to me.

worry

2006-08-03T08:18:00.000-07:00

robert never came home last night and noone knows where he is, and now im worrying. thinking of the worst case scenarios about what could have happened to him. i worried so much i didnt sleep last night. and now im at work. nodding off. great. im sure hes ok and ill see him later. i hope so, cause im gonna beat his ass.
i went to see clerks 2 last night. it was good. it was really really funny. raunchy, but really really funny. the acting in this one was way better than the first, but i dont know if it was better in general. that decision will take multiple viewings.
i'm really looking forward to seeing josh. im not sure what we'll do exactly, but im pretty confident i can keep him entertained. if nothing else he can stare at the pretty hi def tv.
thats it. im done for now. time to do actual work.

weekly hotness

2006-07-28T11:10:00.000-07:00

ok this is old news. Naveen Andrews should have been weekly hotness number one along time ago, i just forgot about him. Im sorry sayid. If you must, then torture me with your charm, good looks and ambiguous accent. I can take it. Just dont let Barbera know.
So here's the very sexy and talented Naveen Andrews. Enjoy.

the more you try to erase me.....

2006-07-25T09:35:00.000-07:00

.....the more that i appear.

taking a stand

2006-07-24T13:30:00.000-07:00

When I got into work this morning, I read a few things about M. Night and how he had made another bad movie. It took me a sec, but then I got it. WTF?! i thought to myself. I had the priviledge of seeing LITW with Robert and I will say with aplomb that I loved this movie. I am here and now taking a stand. Quite a few times I have given a good rating to a movie and was then later ridiculed for liking what others saw as total crap. Well I'm taking a stand. Opinions vary. It is the natural law of things. Well im doing as the title of this post suggests. Im taking a stand. I fucking LOVED Lady in the Water. I thought it was beautiful, funny, smart, and very engaging. Im going to watch it again in the theatres as soon as possible. Too often people will be lead by the opinions of others just to stay in with the cool people, and to not be thought a fool. Well not me. So go ahead. Ridicule away. Tell me i'm a hopeless sentimentalist and point out what you think are the films flaws. When the smoke clears ill still love this movie, and I will not be ashamed of that.

last

2006-07-21T08:04:00.000-07:00

havent blogged in a while because i havent been able to surf at work. the bigwigs have been in the office and there is a zero tolerance no surfing rule when they're here. im doing ok. trying to keep my mind occupied. my roomates are very lazy and refuse to clean. lazier than me if you can believe that. i had to brow beat my brother just to get him to wash the dishes. i really want to write more poetry, but nothing is coming. you'd think that with whats happened recently, i'd have poetry coming out of my ears, but such is not the case. i really really miss my friends in denton. the second i get a car or some means of getting out there, im gone.

not better

2006-07-18T07:38:00.000-07:00

i thought that after a while i would get over it and stop thinking about her, but such is not the case. every day when i wake up and when i got to bed shes on my mind, and how much i hurt. its kind of funny, shes going to forget about me in a few months, but every day for the rest of my life im going to be wondering what i could have done to make her stay with me, or what i did wrong in the first place to make her go. ever since she dumped me ive felt unlovable and totally worthless. i usually would never talk about something like this on my blog, but i had too. otherwise it may have gotten worse. ill probably end up deleting this soon.

weekly....

2006-07-14T09:26:00.000-07:00

.....I can't even call this hotness. This goes way beyond that. This is the weekly jaw-dropping beauty. When I first saw this I just stared at this for like five minutes. I guess maybe part of the reason for my amazment is seeing them all together. If I were crazier with my money, and not all responsible now, I would buy the framed poster, which is like ninety dollars. But until then I'll just have to do with the jpeg. Behold, the definition of Beauty. IMO

scattered

2006-07-13T16:08:00.000-07:00

mmm stuff...umm. ive been at moms since yesterday, not feeling well. been having more problems with my kidneys but no stones says the doctor. did get some drugs though. clerks 2 is premiering tonight in austin with a q & a from smith after words. why didnt i hear about this earlier? bastards. ive not been working much so ive been getting shitty checks. im going to have to do something to get extra money to pay bills. roberts girlfriend amy is moving in so hopefully shell help with her part. ive been playing kingdom hearts 2 for the past week and its really good. my hot downstairs neighbor tony traded it to me for shadow of the collosus. i'm missing everyone from denton a great deal, but dont know when ill be able to visit. hopefully ill buy jasons car from him soon. i dont care about punctuation of capitalization right now if you hadnt noticed. i ripped a hole in my only pair of jeans, so now i have nothing to wear for casual day at work. actually raine ripped them when she glomped me at my party. being poor sucks. oh well.
guess thats all. catch you on the flipside.

Margie!

2006-07-10T08:10:00.000-07:00

This should be expected. This is the third time i've had to substitute a post on my blog for a real birthday gift, and i'm sorry. I really should save some money up for birthday season next year and just stay for everyones birthday. The trifecta anyways (dave, josh, and margie) who's birthdays are closest together.
How can I describe Margie? Hmmmm. Margie is the greatest. She's a woman's woman. A perfect representative of her sex. She's charming, funny, very intelligent, caring, thoughtful, and of course, mind blowingly beautiful. (if it seems like i'm hitting on you, it's cause i am *j/k*) Shes also a tough no nonsense kinda gal who doesn't take any crap from anyone. Oh yeah she's also a devoted, loving mother. What more could you possibly want?
Anyhoo, today is her 32nd birthday. Whenever I think about Margie, I get less afraid of turning thirty (which will happen in less than 3 years). She makes it look easy. That sorta seems like a backhanded compliment, but its not. You're the greatest Margie. I really wish I could be with you on birthday. I'll see ya soon. Happy birthday! I love you!

K-num Smash!

2006-07-07T12:15:00.000-07:00

ok everybody gets angry now and then. its a fact of life. i am no exception to that rule. but i always make sure that i never get angry in public and have an outburst. this has changed recently thanks to the dipshits at rentway. i had to give back my comp a couple of weeks ago because the disc drive wasnt reading anything. yes im renting to own a laptop. what can i say im a cheap bastich.
i called a few days later and they said it still wasnt fixed. for the next two weeks i was getting the runaround. it almost done, we had to send off for parts. stuff like that. so finally i call them from work yesterday and they said they had rented it to someone else. this is when the angry started. i asked him why. (this btw was the guy i had mainly been in contact with about my comp the entire time.) he said 'I didnt know you wanted it back' at this point i might have actually had a stroke. im not sure. i was too angry to notice anything. as calmly as possible i said, ill come down there to discuss this in person, at which point i hang up, and go back to work stewing the entire time.
I went to rentway directly afterwork. the same guy was there. as calmly as possible i say, is there anyway of getting my computer back. he said not unless the person doesnt pay for it or returns it. i said ok do you have another computer i could rent, and he of course said no. this is the point at which i flipped. i wont tell you verbatim what i said, but you can trust that i said alot of curse words at a pretty high volume. at one point he said if you dont calm down ill have to call the cops. at this point i said fuck you let me talk to the manager. he got me to calm down and said as soon as they got another laptop, i would get it and i would get a free month to go with it. i said fine and took off, getting a dirty look from the asshole. i should have flipped him off.
on the way back home i started to feel bad, and considered calling and apologizing, but my brother stopped me and told me he deserved it. i guess so.
so yeah i hulked out. in public. it doesnt happen. like at all. i was mainly pissed cause the comp was pretty much my only means of staying in touch with steph. hopefully ill get another one soon.

hello humanity

2006-07-05T15:06:00.000-07:00

i have never in my life seen anything like postsecret. this is the greatest thing in the world. never have i been so quickly reduced to tears and riddled with laughter in such a brief period of time. if aliens were ever to visit i would think showing them postsecret would be cool. this is how humans really are. this is a deep unflinching look into the human mind. afraid, bitter, caring, hopeful, and in some ways, painfully beautiful. i wish everyone in the world could spend five minutes on postsecret. i wish i knew how to make the link on my blog to postsecret really freaking huge. i really want to send something in myself, but i cant think of anything to write, and i certainly dont want to make anything up. i want it to be real. i hope postsecret is around forever.

p.s. if you want to know which one made me cry, its this one.

Weekly Hotness

2006-07-03T08:12:00.000-07:00

Because you asked for it, and because I really dont feel like blogging about what a crap party I had, here's the weekly hotness, albeit a little late.

This week is Peter Sarsgaard. He is, IMO, the hottest man ever. I cant even really say what it is exactly about him that I like. Hes not horribly attractive, and most the time in the movies he's playing assholes. Except for Kinsey. I loved his character in Kinsey. Plus you get to see him COMPLETELY NAKED. He's got a certain type of charm I just cant explain. Maybe someone can help out with this. Anyhoo enough talk. Here he is, in all his smarmy glory.

Moments in Time

2006-06-26T11:58:00.000-07:00

I've decided to relive old memories on my blog. I was reminded of a very specific memory this morning and I thought that it would be nice to transcribe it. Just in case one day I go senile and cant remember it, I can read it maybe. I was sitting at the bus stop listening to my ipod at 730 am. The song was on shuffle and switched to Dissident by Pearl Jam. I was sent back to 1993. 8th grade. My mom used to work at this crappy home for mentally handicapped kids. Alot of the time I would go to work with her, mainly out of utter boredom. She worked the overnight shift. I had just gotten versus. I bought it from cd warehouse the day it came out. I listened to it constantly for almost a week. I also bought a shirt with the album cover on it. One night I went to work with mom. There was this guy that worked there sometimes that went to UNT. I dont remember his name. He was pretty a cute guy, early twenties. He looked at my shirt and then said 'You know Pearl Jam is playing here really soon'. I said yeah in dallas im sure, wish I had a way out there. Mom worked alot and I didnt know anyone with a car that would be willing to take me out there. 'No' he said. 'In Denton'. When he said those words I swear to god my heart stopped beating. I could barely get out a 'what?' He said yeah they're playing at the UNT coliseum. Tickets go on sale next week. Im going to wait in line for them. You wanna come with and wait with me to get some tickets. You have to be a student at UNT but I can buy one for you. Im just guessing this is what he said. At that moment the only thing I could hear was a little voice in my head saying 'holycrapholycrapholycrapholycrapholycrapholycrap' He asked mom if it was ok and she said sure. She even payed for my ticket. I couldnt believe it. Not only were they playing in Denton, but they were playing within walking distance of my place. Like less than a mile.
The next day I was sitting outside at 8am in the morning in thirty degree weather with no coat waiting in line with a bunch of college students for pearl jam tickets. There were a lot of people there who felt real bad for me cause i was shivering the whole time. I got a lot of free food and hot chocolate. I got to hang out with some really cool college kids. Most of them were freshman I think. I felt really cool though
Eventually it warmed up a bit and the line started to shorten. They told me I could wait at a bench while they bought my ticket. An hour later they came back with a ticket to see pearl jam. Two weeks later I saw them. The coliseum is a pretty cool place to see a concert. BTW this is the very first concert I ever went to. The buttholes surfers opened up for them. They were weird, but really cool. I remember on their last song Gibby Haynes unscrewed the top of the hi hat off and poured lighter fluid in it, lit it, and started hitting it. Everytime he hit it, the flames went higher and higher. It was pretty sweet. Right as they were leaving the stage, Gibby said 'ok stick around, up next is stone temple pilots'. At the time they were very closely compared to each other. Stp was often accused of ripping off PJ's sound.
After about 40 minutes they came on. The opened with Go of course really awesome song. They played everything from versus and alot from ten. I remember them playing black. That was really cool. What stood out the most was Dissident though. This was and still is my fav Pearl Jam song of all time. When they played it, I was...im not sure I can even describe it. I was in tears im pretty sure. I was probably making a fool of myself, singing along at the top of my lungs. I could have died right then completely happy. I was elevated. All this sounds completely corny, but its true. That night when I went home I didnt sleep, I just listened to more pearl jam for quite some time. That was one of the greatest moments of my life.

ps. this is the longest post I have ever written. If you didnt read it all i wont hold it against you

Weekly Hotness

2006-06-22T13:38:00.000-07:00

This week is Zooey. Zooey Deschanel. I even love her name. *sigh* Soooo hot! The sad thing is that seeing her is only half of the reason she's hot. I also love her voice! If I ever met her I would probably either have a heart attack or simply just stand there and stutter at her. Enjoy!

Josh

2006-06-21T09:13:00.000-07:00

So today is Josh's birthday, and I can't show up to his party this weekend of give him any presents. Well he gets his very own post on a blog no one reads. Small consolation I know. Josh is my best friend, and has been for a long time. He's smart and funny, and I sometimes wish I had never moved away, even though i'm doing pretty well here in Austin. I will come visit sometime soon. Im buying my roomates car from him next month, so i'll have transportation. Hope you guys have a great time. Happy b-day Josh. I love you!

crazy days

2006-06-16T14:02:00.000-07:00

Today and tomorrow are going to be nuts. get off of work. move new dining room furniture. get hair cut. do other crap im sure. wake up earlier go get rental car. get suit from cleaners. find wedding gift. buy new tie. im sure im forgetting things. not only am i spending all my time but it looks like ill end up spending all of my money as well. crap. oh well. pray for mojo.
new post on fh. be warned. its not happy. laters.

weekly hotness

2006-06-14T12:16:00.000-07:00

ok heres another little feature that im going to call weekly but only do once or twice. Weekly hotness. This week is Simon Pegg. Yowza.

The prodigal son returns....

2006-06-12T08:08:00.000-07:00

Yes its true. I didnt believe it at first myself when mom told me, but once I heard his voice over the phone I was convinced. Farley is Back! Can you believe it? He's been gone for over a month. He remembered exactly where he lived. Mom was crying when she called to tell me, and even I got a little choked up. Now there is no denying. Farley is the best cat ever.

shakes fist

2006-06-05T16:47:00.000-07:00

allright! which one of you fuckers got me sick?!

believe it or....well just freakin believe it

2006-06-01T14:22:00.000-07:00

Again I have gone almost a week without posting. 99.999 percent of the time this is either because i dont have something to post about, or am in a funk because the blog doesnt get read. Well let me say this now. For perhaps the first time since i've had this blog, i've been too busy. You heard me. I did not have the time to blog. I know its shocking that it wasnt to sheer laziness but simple time contraints. I can hardly believe it myself. Between moving and work and everything else im lucky i've been able to sleep my normal three to four hours a night. This will probably continue until sometime next week, when we're settled in a bit. Maybe we'll even have a housewarming party. Who knows.
So the real reason for this post, other than bitching is to post what i wanted to for the past few days and never got a chance too. We'll call it PastPosting. Hey I kinda like that. Patent Pending.

For my first post I would like to talk serious for a second. I have an addiction. Its one I am ashamed of, but one I must confess nonetheless. Its seems to have taken the place of smoking, or at least my oral fixation. And it's left me with breath fresher than anyone should ever have.

Hello, my name is Cainnum, and I am a 'toidaholic. When I use, I only use peppermint. Sometimes I'll have one, and then thirty seconds later i'll have another. One time I was out of altoids and i saw something in the floor that looked like one, so I ate it. It wasnt an altoid. I'm not sure what it was, but I awoke several hours later, laying naked in the bushes with my pants wrapped around my head. Someone please help me.

Next up. ACL festival. I am going. I will be the first one there and the last one leaving. This is the greatest lineup for any music festival I have ever seen. Its like they built this lineup just for me. Aimee Mann, Phoenix, Van Morrisson. And my favorite band of all time probably. I have fantasized about seeing Sparklehorse before, and now im actually going to get a chance to. If you ask me $115 for a three day ticket is too cheap, but i'm not complaining. I loved seeing the pixies at acl fest two years ago, but this IMO is a much better line up. No dashboard confessional for starters. God I cannot wait! ahem sorry. Btw I may also attempt some sort of liveblogging thing, they should have the outdoor mesh at zilker park by then.

Lastly, the wedding. I havent been to a wedding since I was eleven. I thought about not going, but i was formally invited, so that would have been really rude of me. I didnt even bother looking for a date, b/c i know where that would have ended up. I am taking my brother and his GF, so at least ill have someone to drink with. Sigh, now I have to buy clothes. And I was thinking of renting a car. Its in SA, and I dont want to have to borrow mom's truck. Anyone have any tips on weddings? Btw thanks for commenting shaw, you should do that all the time. And tell amanda to come and comment too.

Ok that should make up for a week. If not well then your mother. Laters

i swear this time its happening

2006-05-25T10:24:00.000-07:00

am moving out. the last day of the month. me, my brother, his gf, and rob's friend jason. huge three bedroom apt with a bathroom in each room. im gonna be the one doing most of the werk, seeing as how i am the only one that asked for that day off. bastards. oh well. im kinda excited/nervous/sad. excited, well cause i'm freakin movin out, nervous cause i'm not sure it'll work, and sad cause i'll be away from a computer and phone, so i cant contact my girl. *sigh* i love you baby. a computer will be the first thing i get, even if i have to rent to own it.
in other news, xmen is starting tomorrow and i am broker than a joker, so i lose. no xmen for me.
lost season finale was last night, and it was way better than last season. alot of questions were answered, but even bigger mysteries came to light. i'm glad i saved it to the dvr, cause i'm going to watch it again and again.

by the way, everyone *margie and stephanie* who might have a cool blog or website that might support rss, let me know. i want more blogs to add to bloglines. thanks. laters

now in hi-def

2006-05-21T20:57:00.000-07:00

well i'm blogging again. blog blog blog. hey you know what i can say whatever i want to on here. i'm the lord jesus christ. anyhoo, miss veronica worked her magic and voila the blog title appears on screen and the pic is way clearer. and i've signed up for bloglines so maybe i'll get my own bloggie magic. who knows. i really want to get floodedhearts out there for all to see. so since last i've blogged farley the best cat ever ran away, we have a computer at home now, i saw the da vinci code, work has been killing me, rob and i are struggling to get into this apt after they did a credit check, and I joined the freemasons.

ok that last one isn't true. but i've been really intrigued by the masons lately and reading alot. i fixate on shit like this and i have no idea why. oh well. until another day my brethren.

week

2006-05-10T14:56:00.001-07:00

i'm having a really shitty week. i wish it would go away already. i won't go into details. if you want to know i'll tell. in email not here. just really....shitty. i wish i could just go away.

match made in heaven

2006-05-05T12:37:00.000-07:00

So thanks to the lovely and talented *and beautiful* Stephanie, floodedhearts has now found itself a home at myspace. There's only one poem there at the moment, but more will be posted i'm sure. Unfortunately I can't get to myspace at work, but everybody else jump in. It's on my friends list. Go comment and be merry.
Oh another thing. Everybody knows that i'm really insecure and would probably rather die than compliment myself in anyway. I'm not saying i'm not vain. As my good friend josh once said, vainity can go both ways. Well i'm switching it into drive instead of reverse for once. I was taking pics for steph/myspace when this happened. Here. Look. Behold. A good picture of me.

go figure.

song

2006-05-02T07:57:00.000-07:00

sometimes you find something so beautiful to you that you feel you'll burst if you don't share it. think what you will. it may be hokey to some, but it is what is. i'm done doing song of the week, so i guess it's the song of the whenever. hmm song of the whenever? that's going on FH. Patent Pending!

Beth Orton - Conceived

dpressed

2006-04-24T10:38:00.000-07:00

well stephanie is moving and i don't know when i'll get to talk to her again. what's worse is that she may be moving even further away from me. sigh. when anything good actually happens to me, it never lasts. why does my life suck so much. that was a hypothetical. don't answer that. somebody should get signed up on gmail so i can have somebody to chat with while at work. i was going to post the second renaissance part two, something about how I like my poetry and will do anything i can to promote it, but now i really don't give a shit. margie i think your new power may have backfired on me

p.s. don't actually read this

The Second Rennaisance Part 1

2006-04-18T07:17:00.000-07:00

The pessimist in me says that no one really changes, and that this indicates nothing. But who knows.
I got a checking acct yesterday with compass. My company has a deal worked out where i get everything free with them. Add this to the fact that i'm moving out sometime next month, and you might just get a semi-responsible new cainnum. HAHAHA! Just joking. That's ridiculous. Oh jeez. Sometimes I kill me.
Ahh I can almost hear the Jeffersons theme song now.

egad a base tone.....

2006-04-11T11:30:00.000-07:00

I was trying to come up with something to post about, and for some reason palindromes came up. I've been thinking about them for a while, thanks largely in part to They Might be Giants. The bigger they get, the more interesting they become. 'Bob' or 'Otto' probably isn't going to impress too many people, but spout something like 'Egad a base tone denotes a bad age', and people might start taking notice. Well nerdy people anyway. Wikipedia has quite a few good ones here.
It's a shame the word palindrome isn't one. That would be cool.
I tried coming up with one myself, but the best I could come up with was:

I never evil did, liver even I

I guess the hard part isn't coming up with one, it's coming up with one that makes one damn lick of sense. Maybe I should stick to the word search.

Anybody have any good ones? Anybody care? Was it a car or a cat i saw?

Moving.....again

2006-04-05T08:22:00.000-07:00

Yes you heard right. I am moving out of my mom's place again. Maybe It'll stick this time. Some of you may already know this. I'm moving in to a house with my brother and a guy we work with named Reign. No he's not some scary renfair dork, he's a regular guy with a weird name. Like me....

Ok not like me, but you get the picture.

Now i've already gotten a bit of flack from somebody that will go nameless(margie), about moving in with my brother, and that maybe that's not such a good idea. Well who knows. A) my brother has changed since coming back from SF and he seems to be more responsible and not as...what's the word...criminal. b) He has a job, that pays as much as I get so I know he can afford rent. c) We have been known to buttheads in the past, but we've been getting along pretty well recently. d) Everybody deserves a second chance. I guess we'll see what happens. At this point, almost anything is better than my current living situation. If i'm bitching about it a couple of months you can say i told you so.

Btw, just in case anyone didn't know, i'm coming to denton this week, maybe with loren. Should be in friday night between 10-12 and will leave sunday 3 or 4 in the afternoon. Hope I can see everybody.

P.S. Just in case you though that the simpsons movie was just a rumour, check this out.

Aspects of Lost

2006-03-30T12:57:00.000-08:00

Sorry, but I need to vent. If you're not at all interested in the show then simply disregard this post. This is pretty much going to be a weighing of pros and cons about the show. Honestly they're pretty even right about now. Call it my homage to Book of Ratings. I'll try and keep the spoilers to a minimum. I'll start with the cons

1: The reruns. I was nearly driven mad for almost an entire month waiting for a new episode. What the hell? Granted any lost is good lost, but they kept showing the preview for the new episode for three weeks. By the time I actually saw the episode I had certain exciting scenes memorized.

2: The plot. Or lack thereof. Lost pretty much consists of random weird events that lead to other random weird events, and the characters reaction to said events. A bit of lazy writing if you ask me. Oh and flashbacks. Lots of those. Each episode is usually devoted to flashbacks of one characters life before the crash. This usually leaves me saying 'I wonder when we're gonna hear more about hurley' or 'when are we gonna get another locke episode?'* which we did this week*

3:Where the FUCK are Michael and Walt?! It's not like they were my favourite characters or anything, but they are main characters. Walt was taken and then Michael went after him. And that's it. No one has said anything about them since. Maybe the mysterious *insert sarcastic tone* force erased everbody's memories. Weird. Eerie. Annoying. No wait, just annoying.

Pros

1: The characters. Without the characters there would be no show, just a creepy island with a polar bear, twidling his thumbs in boredom, waiting to get shot. Their lives are way more interesting than mine, and they are piddling around on a not at all deserted island for my amusement. Also some of the guys really bring out the homo in me. Jack is hot, but kind of standard. Sawyer is pretty good looking, but a complete ass. Jin is hot, but kind of ovebearing and dopey. Sayid though, oh my goodness that man is sexy. He's gotten pretty angry ever since.....something happened, but he's still freaking gorgeous. Ahem..sorry.

2:I have to say the random events are a plus as well. They keep me, and millions of other tv viewers coming back for more. Granted by the end of the series, we will probably come out with more than a handful of little story arcs or clues that will go absolutely nowhere. And that's when the looting will begin.

3:The look. I've gone over this before but i'll say it again. The production value for this show must be pretty high, because it really does look like it was cut for the theatres. I'd probably end up peeing my pantaloons in awe and wonder if I ever saw an episode in Hi-def. Kudos to JJ and his crew for suckering ABC out of what I assume is piles and piles of money they regularly swim in.

There is sooo much more I could cover, and probably will if I get bored enough. This season is building up to maybe answer a few things, but it's got a long way to go to proper closure. Although it has dipped from number one on my list to number two, now that the Sopranos are back on, it still a big reason why I still watch tv.

This fanboy is rant is over. You may go in peace.

woozle wuzzle

2006-03-27T15:14:00.000-08:00

I guess I should post, if for nothing more than postings sake. I really, really, really want to come visit everyone in Denton soon. Getting a little homesick I guess. I might be moving out of my mom's place in the next couple of months. W00T! I saw V for Vendetta on saturday. It was the coolest. The external speakers on my psp have gone out, so it's more like an ipod than ever. The Sopranos have started again, so my sundays don't suck anymore, and I really want to write a poem, but nothing is coming out. *watch it with the jokes sickos*

Same as it ever was.

Hippo Birdie two Ewes!

2006-03-23T08:57:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday Dave! I'm dedicating an entire post just for you. A crappy birthday gift I know, but it's all I could come up with. A visit would be even better i'm sure, and that will happen soon. You're 27 now right? Just like me. Hope you have a great birthday and get lots of cool stuff. Sorry I couldn't be there. Laters.

Swimming in it

2006-03-21T13:16:00.000-08:00

Sunday night was the only night I went out on SXSW weekend, so I went with what I know. Apparantly every sunday night for over a year, they've had an adult swim viewing party a bar downtown called redrum. I went to my very first one last sunday, and I had a blast, mainly because quiet a few people from william street were there. I met Dave Willis, co-creator of ATHF and the voice of meatwad and carl. I also met a chick named melissa, who is a producer for boondocks and squidbillies. She gave me her card and told me to email her and she'd send me lots of cool free stuff. Score! Also I talked with this really cute guy named Robby for a while. AND I got to watch all the shows that my friends and family would probably turn their noses at. (Boondocks, Moral Orel, Minoriteam*which was effin' hysterical*) On a really big screen to boot. I plan on going as much as possible. I don't mean to sound cheesy, but I did get a real sense of community there.
And that, ladies and gentlemen, is just one more reason why I love Austin!

My next g-g-generation

2006-03-15T11:52:00.000-08:00

Besides blogging, my time wasting is mostly done through the wonderful world of video games. Including my psp I have three systems, and lord only knows what i'll have come next year. If you talk to me for more than five minutes, i'm bound to spout some random fact about the next generation. 360 is here, and my opening impression is that it's a high def xbox/ipod. The news this morning is that the ps3 will be released worldwide early this november, complete with a built in 60gig hd *sweet!* and a new, and supposedly free, online service ready at launch time. These are tenative facts of course, and could change at any time. BTW if you want to know what I and other people think the ps3 should look like, take a gander.

Pretty nice mock up if you ask me.

As far nintendo goes they're doing they're best to distance themselves from their competitors. Claiming to usher in a new era of gaming with their wand like controller, the revolution will most likely be marching around the same time, if not earlier than it's japanese rival. I'm actually more excited about the revo., mainly because it will be within my price range. (ps3 could be $399 or even more, and early numbers for the revo put it around $99 to $199)

Lastly, as far as new devices, and what i'm likely to buy from nintendo go, there is the DS lite. I had a DS for a while, and wasn't blown away by it. I eventually traded it in for my psp. Over the last year the ds has come out with a buttload of games as well as a pretty popular wifi service and now they have revamped the whole damn thing. Here's a peek.

It's smaller, better looking, and has a screen that's ten times brighter. It's selling like out crazy in Japan. I can honestly say I will most likely buy one when it's released in the states. Geez i'm a fickle mushhead.

OH yeah one more thing!

Katamari! For the PSP! Next Tuesday! Ya-Ta!