patience
this post is going to be very cathartic for me. it's on a subject i really should discuss with my family, but never will, but i have to get it out, otherwise i might explode.
My aunt evelyn is driving me crazy. quite literally.
first of all i know it's my own damn fault for not being fiscally responsible and having to move back in with my mom and aunt. hopefully this will be remedied soon. but probably not until i get the hang of this weightloss thing.
anyhoo, my aunt is not very stable. i won't go into detail, bc it is her life and i'm sure she wouldn't appreciate it if i started writing about her medical history on her blog. she has to take a lot of medicine and we have to sort of keep an eye on her. that's not the problem however. the two problems are as follows.
number one, her memory. it's not like she can't remember where she put glasses or what have you. she can't remember an episode of law and order she saw two days ago, and i have to pay for it, by watching the same damn episodes over and over again, and i didn't really like law and order to begin with. BTW if you're asking how that's possible, turn it to TNT sometime. They don't really show much else. it's really frustrating.
she also has compulsions. very ocd. Not at the level of monk or anything. not yet anyways.
but none of this is her fault. i know it. she also is aware of her problems and has apologized, even though that wasn't necessary. the real problem is me. i am not a patient person, and i know this. i get really angry at her, and don't do a very good job of hiding it. i really need some method of dealing with my anger and thusly become nicer towards her, because she deserves it, and i do love her. i don't think counting to ten and breathing is quite the way to go, but something similar, maybe some sort of mantra.
i really feel bad when i get angry with her, and i need to atone by being super sweet to her. but she's not use to that and it might tip her off that somethings up. i'll just be kind for now. i hope. God how i do hope.
Posted by cainnum at 8:57 PM
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You know what helps me when I feel stressed out? visiting my friends in Denton. Also, I'll have to check with the bosses, but we *do* still have some space available for rent. At these rates it's practically FREE (Cuz,well, it is). I'm also willing to throw in a loaf of french bread. Mmm, bread. On a more personal note, having crazy relatives sucks. No one wants to watch Law and Order that much. It sounds like you're handling it as best you can though. It's probably the stress in general...the aunt is just that extra bit of frosting you didnt want. *hug*
yay! dave commented. i'm a happy boy now.
If you figrue out how to get all zen and not angry, do please let me know the trick. That would be super.
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