Wednesday, October 26, 2005

reason

the reason for not posting for at least a week......horrible depression. i didn't want to bring anyone down, so i didn't bother with posting, but i'm posting about it now, soo...whatever. i already have one victim, sorry margie. anyway, most of it has to do with dieting and knowing that it will never get anywhere with it. not being able to acquire any sort of gainful employment has also been bothering me as well. i thought that i was getting a little better yesterday when i went to go babysit for candace, but i lost it heading back home on the bus. Too much thinking, too much worrying, whatever it was, i started crying. not like bawling or anything, but quite sobbing. on the bus. with a lot of people watching. thankfully most of them ignored me. there was one girl who was giving me funny looks, but i looked up at her and she quickly looked away. i was pretty embarassed, and dried up pretty quickly. i got off the bus and finished what i started while walking home. i don't know what my problem is. i'll get over it i guess.
dave i'm a damn liar and won't be able to visit this weekend. i'm really sorry. i'm completely broke.
also if anybody would like to suggest halloween costumes for me that would be awesome. anything really. i'm desperate.
there was something else i was going to say but i can't remember. i'm sorry if i made anybody sad.

Posted by cainnum at 7:19 AM

2 Comments

  1. Blogger Margie the Pickle Princess posted at 3:25 PM  
    I'm sorry you've been so blue. And you didn't claim me as a victim! I have depression of my own to deal with. :) Stick with it, baby! You will beat this thing!
  2. Blogger Dave posted at 5:59 PM  
    How much cash would you need to visit? The Church of Dave has been known to be charitable when good friends are having shit times. I'd totally give to the cause. Not a single string attached! That's how much I likes ya baby! I hate seein' my Cainnum all blue. If you can make it down, I can get you back, I'll even cover whatever money you had to borrow. For realz! Sounds like you're mostly just feeling the strain my man. It happens to all of us. You're a good fellow sir. *hug*

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