the breath robbing lightning, was making diamonds of rain

crapsgiving

i wish i was going home for thanksgiving but im not. im staying here. maybe b/c of my brother, lack of funds etc. id much rather be working even than staying here tomorrow. im sad but what else is new. maybe ill get to see raine though

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painted

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guilt

my bday is coming soon, and unsurprisingly im regretting it. not because im getting older *ok thats one of the reasons*, but mainly because i dont deserve anything and certainly dont deserve any sort of celebration, because of my current status as a person. hence anything that i might get from anyone i feel i wont deserve and feel guilty for receiving. i regret bringing it up at all to certain ppl, and wonder if theres a way to stop myspace from annoucing to everyone that its my birthday. maybe ill change it to something else.
so in short memory flashie thing yourself so youll forget. thank you

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