the breath robbing lightning, was making diamonds of rain

brand new!

ahhh!!! time to stretch out on the new blog. i think i could get use to this. the only thing i'm worried about is people asking me if i'm Japanese. i'm not. but sometimes i wish that i was. maybe i'll move there one day. then i'll finally feel like i belong. well it is a country full of short people.

Posted by cainnum at 10:49 AM 4 comments

the date

i say the date and not a date because this is the very first honest to god date i've been on. ever. sad, i know. BTW i have Veronica to thank for this. anyhoo, the date started at the coolest coffee shop in the world. it was called spiderhouse, and it was hidden between a bunch of buildings. i also think it was at one time somebody's house. We then walked over to chipotle for dinner. after that we went to see bob schneider (fuggin awesome!). then i walked her home. it was a lot of fun. i was pretty nervous though. and i paid for everything except the tickets to bob. they were expensive. but i had fun. and i have also decided that guadalupe is actually the coolest street in austin, not 6th.

Posted by cainnum at 1:55 PM 5 comments

an exercise in futility

now before i start, i'm not trying to get anybody to feel sorry. saying that won't help my cause any i'm sure, but i assure this isn't the start of a pity party. ronnie and I have already been through that.
with that having been said, i pose a question. why would one post daily on a blog if no one ever read it, or worse if one had to ask one to read it.
why talk if no one's listening.
self expression. or maybe someday someone will ask what type of person i was. and they'll read my blog and say 'hey, this guy was a hack,' or what have you.
i dunno
maybe because i can.

Posted by cainnum at 5:08 PM 4 comments

Vee Ess

i strike for the rights of terror
says the soul of man
i hate in order to protect my eyes
from one day seeing true
and i blind others for the cause
and that voice is all, say i
filtered through a mile a year long
wild shots hitting like minds
leaving a mark where it matters
and it, the hate
has made us who we are
which is W(e)AR(e)
or battle
one against the other
controlling fire with our hands
destroying heaven with our hearts
becoming
becoming versus
turning away love
for a controlling interest
shunning hope
in trade for green
wiping the color from the world
and painting again with blood
but the half blind are holding
looking for light in the pit
searching for warmth in the ice
crawling home to find.....
home
even though it's endless
even though the numbers
that represent our names
still add up to zero
even though....
collapse is imminent
they hold up the roof with no arms
and keep our heads from falling
and while the versus keeps watch
on the willing and the willful
the keepers and the half blind
will stand

Posted by cainnum at 3:33 PM 1 comments

Cainnum Vs. Alien Vs. Predator

so from time to time I get a movie from netflix I know is probably gonna be crap, but i watch it anyways, sort of a harkening back to the days when i would watch movies with josh and dave. So I decided, quite foolishly, to watch AVP. Now in my defense A.)I didn't know it was directed by Paul W.S Anderson, and B.) didn't know it had Lance Henrikson in it, which are both pretty much the international signs for please watch something else. BTW, Henrikson is human and not an Android in this film, which is dumb. But I digress.
The main problem I have with the movie is this. It doesn't totally suck.
If you are confused, I will elaborate. I have three movie ratings. Crap. Good. Amazing. When a movie falls in between crap and good I get pissed. I'd rather it be total crap, than do what AVP did, which was have a few redeeming qualities. First off, and the best thing, is that it's short, weighing at just over an hour and a half. Secondly, the crappy plot more than willingly steps aside for the ultra-violence, as if to say, yes we know why you really want to watch the movie. Thirdly, and if you haven't seen it, I apologize for being a spoiler. I liked the idea of the Predator being the good guy, ok not the good guy, but the lesser of the two evils. And the end scene with the alien queen was pretty sweet.
But the movie is still crap. I know it to be crap, i saw it with my own eyes. i'm torn between recommending it and warning against it. i really wish i could have seen this with dave. we could have torn it a new one. oh well.
oh yeah i also saw contstantine. go check it out. it's pretty good. laters.

Posted by cainnum at 11:24 AM 1 comments

links

i thought about just posting this in comments, but it might not be seen. then again josh is the only that reads this site. anyway, the link *invisible observer* and others to follow are pictures that i have or will find when searching for the phrase being linked in google image search. i mainly am doing this because i finally remembered how to make a link in html. try it, it's fun. or at least not boring.

Posted by cainnum at 7:36 AM 1 comments

Angry Cainnum......

.......is what my friends would be calling me, if they were the proverbial 'invisible observer'. Not that i've ever been the cheeriest person in the world, but i do believe my demeanor has been going downhill as of late. I'll get angry for the silliest things. Drop my pencil, die in a video game, bus is a bit late. i feel like hulking out sometimes. i really do have rage issues, they've just been dormant i guess. maybe it's lack of sleep, or my job, or the quitting smoking or something. i dunno. i'm just angry. pretty much all the time. i need to calm down somehow. *sigh*

Posted by cainnum at 3:39 PM 1 comments

the utter longing

i can hardly stand it anymore. i need a computer at home. hey i do live in austin, maybe i should stand on a corner with a sign that says will work for computer parts. i mean i could probably blow one check on a crap computer. but it would probably like picking up a prostitute. i really wanna do it, but in the end i know i'll have buyers remorse. actually what i really want is the new mac mini. but that would involve entering a whole new world. a world full of khakis and starbucks. and i don't think i'm ready for that just yet

Posted by cainnum at 2:40 PM 0 comments

facelift

i recently *last night* gave the smiley face tattoo on my left arm a facelift. not me, myself, but a cute hispanic guy named paco. he made the tattoo alot bolder. it looks alot better, but it was not worth the eighty dollars atomic tattoo charged me *plus a ten dollar tip to paco*. i'll definitely be going somewhere else for my next tattoo *which, BTW, will be phillipe the otter* also i really miss you too joshie. i will see you in march. *hugs* later

Posted by cainnum at 2:30 PM 3 comments

i can't think of anything

god i suck

Posted by cainnum at 3:42 PM 1 comments